Showing posts with label reflection. Show all posts
Showing posts with label reflection. Show all posts

Monday, March 28, 2022

The Pilgrimage


 

Retreating with God


I think it was in seminary that I first developed a love for praying outdoors. During an assignment for one of my seminary classes with my favorite professor, Dr. Steve Korch, I had to scout locations for a prayer retreat. It was a new thing for me to set aside a place that was "ordinary" and yet sacred in some way, to remove myself from distractions, walk slowly and listen for God's voice.

One of the first locations where I started to walk and pray was the beautiful chapel and grounds at Santa Clara University, a Jesuit school. I remember traversing the covered pathways under the creeping vines, thinking about God talking to the saints whose images were all around me, and who had taken walks just like me, asking for God's presence and words of truth. 

The most memorable prayer retreat came some years later. I had just quit my job at the church where I was the worship director and though I knew I was supposed to move on, I didn't have a clue what was next for me, or even what direction I was supposed to go. I had applied to a few other churches, but wasn't getting very far in the interview process. I felt very lost, and sorely in need of direction. 

And that’s when I took a one-day pilgrimage by myself to a little remote retreat site in the Santa Cruz mountains, dedicated to those seeking God in prayer. It is such a simple place and yet, every time I go there, God condescends to meet with me.

An Unexpected Answer


That day, I heard from God. I had spent the day following little paths, sitting still, studying the Bible, and gazing all around me at trees, birds and flowers. I had repeatedly asked God what was next for me, where I should I work, what I should do? Big church, small church, Chinese church, American church, Hispanic church? Which denomination? And which role? If only He would give me a lead, I had told him, I would gladly follow it. 

I remember watching a small sparrow hopping on the ground, picking up bits and pieces, here and there. I had just been reading and studying Matthew 6, where Jesus tells the people listening on the hillside not to worry about what they will eat or drink, because the Lord God Himself would provide for them. As I watched that tiny sparrow, I heard from Him. "You are like this sparrow," He said. "You will not have a job for some time. But I will provide for you. I will give you things that you are supposed to do. Just rely on me" That was hard to hear. But I never doubted that it was the word from God, because I had asked Him for His direction, and I hadn’t been expecting to hear that reply. It wasn’t anything that I could have made up in my head. It was directly from Him. 

At the end of the day, I went back to my life, literally going "down the mountain." In His Word, God often uses mountain-tops as places where someone can be "closer" to God. Moses went up a mountain to talk with God. Elijah met God on a mountain. Jesus climbed a mountain... and was revealed in splendor to his companions.

When I went back down the mountain, I treasured this word from God, and I looked carefully to see whether God would do what he had said. God was true to his word. He did provide things for me to do during the next six months: even without a paid job, I was led to specific people he wanted to me to mentor and spend time with, and though I didn't get called back by the churches I applied to, I was filled with peace and contentment. I knew that God was providing, in his own way and time. Every time I was tempted to doubt whether it had been the right thing to quit my job, or to wonder when I would ever make money again, He reminded me that this was his leading and he would provide for me, just like that sparrow. 

Since that time, not only has God always provided, but he also has reminded me of a need to quietly retreat away from my regular surroundings, away from the distractions and a normal every day way of reasoning that I have. 


The Pilgrimage Material


In a new environment, we can often be more open to God and hear from him more clearly. That’s why I created this devotional material, called The Pilgrimage. 

I invite you, too, to get away from your normal surroundings, to  I pray that as you focus on hearing from God, His Holy Spirit will let you know what purpose God has for your life.


What: Material for one day's quiet retreat. It can also be spread out over two days. 

Who: This is a solo retreat, designed to be done by one person alone.

When: The recommended timing is during the Lent season, before Good Friday. 

Where: Away from normal surroundings; find a place outside in nature that is secluded, beautiful, and free from distraction. If you are unable to go to a public space, you can also use it in your backyard or just find a quiet, comfortable chair.

How: Research a location or locations, including planning what to eat for a meal. Print and bind the devotional material into a booklet. Take a pencil and a mobile device to scan the QR code. 


Download The Pilgrimage here:   

More Details: The material is divided into three stations, following Jesus through three separate locations. When following the material, you will pick three different locations to spend with God. After finishing each location's material, you will either drive or walk to another location. 
  • The first location is called The Hill. The reading and reflection questions remind us of God's provision in all things. 
  • The second station is called The Garden. The setting is that long Thursday night before Jesus was crucified; that night he was spending time with his disciples in the garden, giving them poignant last words that he wants them to remember. 
  • The third station is called The Cross. It was originally written to be done at a church location beside a big cross and a fire pit. If your location doesn't have a big cross, it could be done sitting or kneeling in any quiet place, preferably at night.
Usage Rights: 
Feel free to modify the details of The Pilgrimage to suit your audience, but you do not have permission to change the reflection questions or redistribute or sell this material as your own creation. I pray that this free resource is helpful for your faith community and also for your own relationship with God. 

If you appreciated this resource, please comment below and let us know how you used it!

Friday, January 3, 2014

Reflections for the New Year

It's always the same - the year draws to a close, and suddenly, you are conscious of how little you've achieved this year, or how many dreams have gone unfulfilled. For some, there may be a sense of optimism that the new year will turn out differently, but deep down, you wonder if anything will really change. Am I even capable of change? I ask myself frequently, the older I get. 

Actually, I gave up making New Year's Resolutions a long time ago. The last one I can remember was to learn to play gospel keyboard. That must have been nearly 10 years ago, and I know I'm no closer than before. But each year, there are the faint hopes that I will actually use my gym membership, clean out my filing cabinet, take care of those pesky financial decisions I've been putting off... and change my maiden name.

Well, I may have given up on Resolutions, but something I value more and more is the chance to pray and reflect over the past year. I always discover something about myself and God's work in my life. One year, I kept my reflection sheet in my wallet all year, and it helped me stick to the desires I had to improve my relationships whom I had listed.

A few weeks ago, I had the chance to lead our student leadership team in a similar reflection time. It was following the end of a hard school semester and emotions ran high. But having the chance to share hopes and disappointments is a special part of Christian community and the discussion brought us closer.

I'd like to share the reflection questions, in hopes that you too can allow God to speak to you about your past year.

1. Take your time listing out every major memory/experience you had in 2013. (I used my Google planner/Facebook to help me with these)

2. a) What were some themes from your year? Or another way to put it: What did you spend a lot of time thinking about?
b) What actions did you take as a result of these thoughts?

3. a) What is something good you did this year?
b) What is something bad you did this year? ("good" and "bad" are subjective, not moral or legal terms)

4. What relationship in your life would you like to change? What would you like it to look like? What steps do you need to take to help it get there? 

5. a) How have your parents disappointed you? (you could use other family members/spouse instead)
b) How have you disappointed your parents?

6. a) How has God disappointed you?
b) How have you disappointed God?

7. Spend some time to share some of your thoughts with your community and pray for one another. 

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

The Christ of Calvary

"He who knows not the Christ of Calvary knows not God, and he who does not thus know, knows not anything that is worth knowing." --R.E. March

It's Ash Wednesday today; the first day of Lent. (If you don't really understand what Lent is, you can read some background here.) Every year during Lent, I try to spend time reflecting on the suffering of Jesus. One book I have found particularly helpful is Contemplating the Cross by Tricia McCary Rhodes. For 40 days of readings, you walk with Jesus through his journey to the cross and think about his experience. More than anything else, this book has helped me understand and draw nearer to the one who was both God and man.

Contemplating the Cross book


Today I'm thinking about the quote from Day 1 of the readings, which I have written above. What really struck me this time is the first part: "He who knows not the Christ of Calvary knows not God".

Who is the Christ of Calvary? In the last days before Jesus' death, we see glimpses of him that we have never seen before...weeping, afraid, lonely... but buoyed up by some inner strength through which he remains silent when mocked and tortured... and finally, asks God to forgive his murderers right before he dies. To be honest, these are not scenes I like to play in my head. It makes me nervous, uneasy, to think of Jesus crying and afraid. I'm scared to look into the depths of the evil he had to face or feel the strength of the taunts which he bore humbly. And most of all, I dare not face my own vile sin which lurks there, mixed in the cup of bitterness which he had to drink.

But in facing these images, in replaying them in my head, and in worshiping the One who was greater than the evil he faced, I find that I begin to understand who God really is. God is not an impersonal Judge taking down notes of my every action, or even a Amazon shipping agent, fulfilling my orders as I send them in. He's not even just a sweet old Father who is always ready to give me a hug and kiss my bruised knee. God experienced pain, loneliness and fear, just as we do. Instead of remaining aloof from our sin and darkness, Jesus took it and wrapped it round himself like a cloak. Man of sorrows and despised by many... yet taking the sin of the world upon his shoulders. This is the real God... and I long to know him.